The anticipated workload still hasn’t arrived. Reflected a bit, and what I mentioned in my last post was still valid - it’s a smaller pie, more than enough manpower, and not much random side tasks yet. And apparently based on “stats” that have been re-examined again (because others highlight the unjust) the demand for manpower is really there such that I am even getting an additional guy (?!). So I can’t refuse I guess (or it’ll look like I am challenging her authority), nor can I look directly into others’ eyes zzzz.

It’s a happy problem to have I guess, so maybe I shouldn’t be complaining. 

I do feel like team is warming up to me though? I suppose they are really just missing someone to be there for them and I could (because previously they were short of manpower and the leader was too swamped filling gaps). So it’s fortunate I guess. Right place at the right time. Oh that and the fact that I knew what I was doing of course (wuiseh). 

One of the more memorable events so far was when I got into a heated conversation with a counterpart which everybody disliked/had given up on in front of the entire team/neighboring team and came out of the call on the somewhat winning end. I think they looked like they wanted to give me a standing ovation after I hung up LOL so that maybe boosted my credentials a bit - though what they didn’t realize is that I felt so mentally exhausted after that, and not exactly looking forward to further calls with said counterpart. 

Side tasks wise, I do have one big task which only just got started, so as usual when there’s pressure to perform I…procrastinate. Yikes. Some things never change. 

And I have been promised further responsibilities, which was said so often that I am a bit annoyed at their confidence in it, because I felt like I am being lulled into this sense of…I don’t quite know how to put it. I am not mad at being shouldered said responsibility (because that’s what I came for, if I were to be truthful about it) but why y’all think it’s a done deal when you don’t call the shots? Can very well be overturned mah. And if that does happens at this point I am gonna be so upset because y’all were so confident about it. 

Oh well. So one month on, at least the doubts haven’t set in, even if fatigue has started, energy levels not as high, and I find myself researching for hols hahah. Well good news is CNY is only just 4.5 months away, and my next hol is actually even nearer so there’s things to look forward to.