I started having this thoughts almost 3 years ago. At that time I was considering changing jobs at the end of my three year contract - because I was getting tired of what I was doing at that time. Contract ending sound like a good excuse to leave. 

Then the promotion happened and I remember being so busy with everything, trying to settle down to a new groove that the thought left me completely. 

Now that I am on a plateau once again...the thought had re-entered my mind. Coincidentally I’m approaching the end of another 3 year cycle even though that didn’t really mattered anymore now that everybody is a permanent staff rather than contract staff. But similarly, I have grown weary of the role I am holding and perhaps, the fact that we are never going to progress much under the current political system is bothering me more and more. 

I mean, it’s ridiculous that people who have no expertise in certain things can decide planning and operations directions because they so-called speak for the people. 

Policies and principles can be bent if you shout louder and go to the correct people. Perhaps I don’t really want to be involved in this process anymore. 

Though I am really thankful my team, for the most part, have been fantastic and there has not been drama. Makes championing for their welfare so much more, worth it?

Staying in this industry is pretty much the only option I am open to though. That means probably looking for scope of works that does not involve such engagement process. But safe to say until I can find an option like this, I will not be moving from what I am doing. For practical reasons, considering other goals I have in mind. I may not enjoy certain aspects of it anymore, but I am still decent at it.

However tempting it may be to just drop everything and go. I am looking at a couple of recent examples like this, and more than a couple of times my mind is like “let’s throw in a letter today” when waking up for work.

We’ll see. Maybe someone may surprise me one day and present me with a whole new challenge, to make this job meaningful again.