..with more of it to come in the coming years.

Of which I shall go into with higher confidence level and more well-prepared.

This semester's exams totally sucks lah. The papers are not difficult, I know it. I know I will be able to do so much better if I actually spend more time preparing for it. Apparently I knew consistent work is very important, but I can't really bring myself to do it. Not to mention extreme lack of self discipline. I don't think I ever felt so underprepared for every single paper i sat for in a major exam. Save for last year's H3 paper which happened to be an NUS module as well.

Quoting my programming lecturer,

This is just the beginning, and there is no honeymoon year in NUS unlike in JC where you can still play in the first year and get away with it; in NUS, you have to start working very hard from day 1 of every single semester.

Welcome to NUS. :)

Yeap, the same me who was assuring other people to relax and don't think too much about exams is actually thinking quite a lot about it now.

• Physics Paper was quite a killer. I was kind of disappointed because I thought (well, I THOUGHT) I was kind of good enough for it. In the end 2 full days to study for one module with some basic knowledge about it isn't quite eough.
• Programming Paper wasn't hard, if you understand the question. And that slows you down by quite a bit. But still I finish 91% of the paper which is my personal record for this sem's exam. Note that finish doesnt mean answers are correct.
• Maths Paper wasn't hard either. There are even some questions that are straight out of the tutorials (or modified) and I almost kicked myself the moment I saw those questions. Skipping all the Maths lectures since end of September (I mean it) dealt a blow as my concepts are not very strong.
• In the end, one night to try to remember the names of polymers and their uses and the properties of metals and uses of composite materials didnt really paid off, since they made up small portion of the Materials paper. Lack of practice of calculation questions and poor memory of formulas was the killer.
• The little confidence that I built up after the two midterms for Electrical Engineering paper diminished the moment I saw the first question. Again I was left cursing myself because there were questions straight out from the tutorial, which I was planning to read the morning before the paper but somehow I was too occupied with understanding the concepts(which could very well be done much earlier) and I decided to leave it. And so..

Most of the time after the papers end I don't really feel anything about it. Probably due to the fact that I am trying to coax myself into the false (?) assurance that everybody else didnt do well, judging by the loud curses and so on, typical after a paper. What I probably failed to realize is that more people left the exam hall quietly confident about their grades. The above reflection will serve to remind me of how much more I could have done. Obviously there wont be anything that I can do now, except hoping for a CAP that is enough to maintain the scholarship and possibly a trip to Melbourne.

I totally think I deserve every stinking grade that I got this semester. Next semester shall not be a repeat of this sem. And as for Year 2 Sem 1..duno if I shud get myself involved in big hall events like concert (that is, if I get to stay back in RH la). Maybe I am thinking a bit too far ahead.

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