Grounded, for one - didn’t fly anywhere for the first time in a while. Which makes it a very work focused month I guess, for good or for worse. Good because I think I got things done, bad because I kinda got into this bad headspace where I kept getting irritated by the leadership and the direction we are heading towards even though it’s nothing new by now. 

And March meant appraisal results, which turned out to be a long drawn process because firstly I had quite a few people to go through, and secondly not everyone is around during that week so I ended up stretching it over almost two weeks. It was mentally draining at first because the heavyweights are quite frontloaded, as usual not everyone is happy with what they got, but on the plus side there’s not much drama this year and I do feel very much at ease talking to everybody despite again not preparing enough (I still forgot some points for some people and only recall them a few days later). 

And my own, well wasn’t spared from the default-but-officially-not-default drop and let’s just say I now fully understand all those people who have been getting their Cs all these years. Bank account definitely didn’t look as pretty, for the first time since 2013. Definitely stung because it was worse than I expected/remembered it to be, and so I think I took it harder than I expected myself to. May we never land here again. 

Being grounded also means I had time to work on myself so resumed cutting phase after CNY feast - and it wasn’t as fast as I thought, at least I felt that the outcome wasn’t proportionate to the effort I put in. Injured shoulder towards the end of the month and it was bothering and affecting my daily life a fair bit, plus the entire month I felt that something was off with my body again though it not severe enough for me to seek medical attention, but something that I am monitoring closely and hopefully get it sorted out next month. 

And all the war nonsense going on, despite actively booking and confirming trips as far as next year there’s this niggling feeling that it may not work out as planned. Just part of all the negativity playing through the entire month, I guess. 

April will start with a bit of travels so maybe that’s the break I need to reset! Fingers crossed.