Landlady needs the room back. She said to take my time to find a new place, but when pressed further, she decided on end of May.

So propertyguru shall be my new best friend for the next half a month or so. Good thing I have been searching for a while and have a rough idea of what I want.

Still, never felt more vulnerable. And I realized I have taken this stability over the last 4 years for granted. Yes, it has never escaped me for one day that I am living under someone else's roof, but somehow it didn't occur to me how easily that they can take it back. And I had the nerve to tell my mum that there's nothing wrong with the idea of renting a place. 

Never wanted a place of my own so badly till now. But...no money. Yet.

Oh well. Thanks for giving me the push I needed to move on. Relieving me of the need to make my first move, to explain myself etc. In a way it plays into my hand, just that the timing wasn't what I have in mind. 

The search is on (for real)!