The following is just concert rants, as usual. Skip if you don't feel like reading.

Heading to UCC tomorrow.

I feel like I am not doing enough. I can't communicate with my members effectively and hence I can't manage them properly. I can't get HER to listen to me; and I end up listening to her suggestions. Then THEY come around, viewing me as incompetent because I am unable to make her listen to me. THEY make more noise. THEY don't trust me in getting their spotlight positions right. But I have been there for 8 nights. I make notes. I make the effort to remember what's happening in each and every song, and when it will happen. HE doesnt, and continues to think of less fancy lights, over riding what THEY want. In addition, I will have to answer to HER and the UCC people too. Bombs, bullets, knifes coming towards me in four directions. Brilliant.

I will do things my way. Though I don't think I am not mentally strong enough to stand firm.

I will be a very relieved person if I make it out of this mess in one piece.

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